“It’s more than that too.”
Gibralter held the newly made bullet between his thumb and forefinger, moving it so it caught the light.
“See this?” he said softly. “This can take a life or it can save a life. We decide.”
Jesse waited. He knew there was no point of doing otherwise when the chief was in this kind of mood.
Gibralter finally looked over at him. “We enforce the law, right? But what is the law?”
Jesse wondered if Gibralter expected an answer this time. He was relieved when Gibralter put aside the finished bullet and picked up another empty casing.
“What is the law?” Gibralter repeated. “A bunch of statutes in a courthouse somewhere? A set of old leather books in a lawyer’s office? Nine old men in black robes?” Gibralter shook his head. “People want to see the law as this beautiful clean-running stream. But it’s not like that. It can’t be because there is always someone kicking up the bottom or throwing in shit.”
Jesse stared at him, uncomprehending.
“That’s what Kincaid does,” Gibralter said.
Jesse moved to a chair and sat down.
“I don’t think he can be trusted.” Gibralter said. “You
“Sure,” Jesse bowed his head, running a hand through his hair. When he looked up Gibralter was watching him.
“You remember that New Year’s Eve you showed up at my house at three a.m. shit-faced?” Gibralter said.
Jesse nodded slowly.
Gibralter took a swig of beer. “You were seventeen. You ran away from the halfway house and you showed up on my doorstep, half frozen and drunk from that Boone’s Farm shit you stole from the party store.”
Jesse nodded again, his gaze going to the floor.
“You sat on Jeannie’s new white sofa, dripping on her new carpet. You were trying so damn hard to look tough. You said your girlfriend dumped you. What was her name?”
“Dee Dee,” Jesse whispered.
“You said you had called your father.” Gibralter paused. “You remember what he told you? He told you that your running away was the best thing that ever happened to your family. He told you not to call back. You remember that, Jess?”
Jesse said nothing.
Gibralter came over to stand at his side. “You asked me for a glass of water. I went into the kitchen and you picked up my service revolver off the bar.”
“You saw that?”
Gibralter nodded. “I knew what you were thinking of doing.”
“You would have let me do it?”
Gibralter put a hand on Jesse’s shoulder, cupping the knotty muscle. “Jess, the gun was empty.”
“Jesus,” Jesse breathed, looking away. He rose, going to the window.
“But I knew you wouldn’t do it,” Gibralter said. “You didn’t let me down then and you never have since. And I know you never will.”
“I still don’t get it,” Jesse said after a moment.
“Get what?”
He turned to look at Gibralter. “Why’d you split us up?”
Gibralter’s eyes softened. “Sit down, Jess. I’ll tell you,” he said.
The blackness stretched before them, a tunnel of trees, asphalt and night sky. The snow, caught in a glare of the cruiser’s headlights, rushed toward them out of the dark void.
“Looks kind of like the
Louis didn’t reply. He sat back in the passenger seat, adjusting his body to get the gun butt out of his ribs. He was tired, beyond tired and moving fast toward exhaustion. All his life he had been a light sleeper and had learned to function on five hours of fitful sleep. But the churning wake of the week’s events had left him storm tossed, with the burning eyes, heavy limbs and dulled brain of a drowning man. And now he was riding night shift.
Louis closed his eyes and leaned his temple against the cold window. He wasn’t going to make it through the shift awake. New Year’s Eve. The drunks would be out in force soon.
“You haven’t said a word for two hours, Kincaid,” Ollie said.
Reluctantly, Louis opened his eyes and looked over. Ollie Wickshaw was tall and thin, all angles, elbows and eggshell skin. He had a weird mechanical way of moving, as though he were built from Erector set parts. Louis had watched him earlier that night as he got into the cruiser, folding his body down into the seat like one of those old-fashioned wooden carpenter rulers.
Louis focused on Ollie’s hands gripping the wheel. His fingers had the pale brown tint of a chain smoker. Ollie reached up on the dash for his pack of Kools and with a few snaps of movement had the cigarette lit and in his mouth.
“They say
Louis cracked the window. “It’s not personal.”
“I know.”
They rode another mile and Louis looked at his watch. It was almost 1 a.m. and he hadn’t eaten. They hadn’t had a call in an hour.
“Is there someplace open to get something to eat?” Louis asked.
“On New Year’s? Jo-Jo’s about it.” Ollie pushed a brown bag toward Louis on the seat. “You can share my dinner. Got some carrots and celery sticks in there and a soy burger. You ever tried soy?”
Louis sank deeper into the seat. “No.”
