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I suddenly recalled what Angelo had said, the night before I left Sydney. We sanctify what we're stuck with. Maybe that was the heart of it, for Mystical Renaissance. Most of the universe had been inexplicable, for most of human history—and MR had inherited the strand of the culture which had doggedly made a virtue out of that necessity. They'd stripped away—or fed through a cultural blender, in a kind of mock-pluralism—the historical baggage of most of the specific religions and other belief systems which had done the same, in their day… and then inflated what remained into the essence of Big-H itself. To sanctify mystery is to be "fully human." Fail to do so, and you're something less: "soulless," "left-brained," "reductionist"… and in need of being "healed."

James Rourke should have been here. The Battle for the H-words was in full swing.

As we started back toward the hotel, I realized I'd meant to ask Lee a question which had almost slipped my mind.

I said, "Who are the Anthrocosmologists?" The term sounded as if it should have meant something to me, but—vague etymological inferences aside—it didn't.

Lee was hesitant. "I doubt you really want to know. If Mystical Renaissance raise your ire…"

"They're an Ignorance Cult? I've never heard of them."

"They're not an Ignorance Cult. And the word 'cult,' of course, is terribly value-laden and pejorative; although I use it in the vernacular sense like everyone else, I really shouldn't."

"Why don't you just tell me what these people believe, and then I'll make up my own mind exactly how intolerant and condescending to be toward them?"

She smiled, but she looked genuinely pained, as if I was asking her to betray a confidence. "The ACs are extremely sensitive about… the way they're represented. It was hard enough persuading them to talk to me at all, and they still won't let me publish anything about them."

The ACs! I feigned indignation, trying to mask my jubilation. "What do you mean, 'let'?"

Lee said, "I agreed in advance to certain conditions, and I have to keep my word if I want their cooperation to continue. They've promised there'll be a time when I can put everything on the nets—but until then, I'm on indefinite probation. Disclosing information to a journalist would destroy the whole relationship in an instant."

"I don't want to publicize anything about them. This is purely off the record, I swear. I'm just curious."

"Then it won't do you any harm to wait a few years, will it?"

A few years? I said, "All right, I'm more than curious."

"Why?"

I thought it over: I could tell her about Kuwale—and ask her to swear to keep it to herself, to avoid embroiling Mosala in any more unwelcome speculation. Except that… how could I ask her to betray one confidence while begging her to respect another? It would be pure hypocrisy—and if she was willing to swap secrets with me, what would her promise be worth?

I said, "What have they got against journalists, anyway? Most cults are dying to recruit new members. What sort of ethos—?"

Lee eyed me suspiciously. "I'm not going to be tricked into any more indiscretions. It's my fault entirely that the name slipped out, but the topic is now closed. The Anthrocosmologists are a non-subject."

I laughed. "Oh, come on! This is absurd! You're one of them, aren't you? No secret handshakes; your notepad is sending out coded infrared: I am Indrani Lee, High Priestess of the Revered and Sacred Order."

She took a swat at me with the back other hand; I pulled back just in time. She said, "They certainly don't have priestesses."

"You mean they're sexist? All male?"

She scowled. "Or priests. And I'm not saying anything more."

We walked on in silence. I took out my notepad and gave Sisyphus several meaningful glances. The full word had unlocked no Aladdin's cave of data, though: every search on "Anthrocosmologists" came up blank.

I said, "I apologize. No more questions, no more provocation. What if I really do need to get in touch with them, though, but I just can't tell you why?"

Lee was unmoved. "That sounds unlikely."

I hesitated. "Someone called Kuwale has been trying to contact me. Ve's been sending me cryptic messages for days. But ve failed to turn up at an arranged meeting last night, so I just want to find out what's going on." Almost none of this was true, but I wasn't going to admit that I'd screwed up a perfect opportunity to discover for myself what AC was about. In any case, Lee remained impassive; if she'd heard the name before, she showed no sign of it.

I said, "Can't you pass on the message that I want to speak to them? Give them the right to choose for themselves whether or not to turn me down?"