Nonetheless, he kept these attacks to himself until Christmas of 1976, when he had a convulsion, a grand mal seizure; he was in bed with a girl at the time, and she described it to him. He consulted a neurologist, who confirmed that he had temporal lobe epilepsy, probably caused by injury to the right temporal lobe sustained during the car crash. He was put on antiepileptics—first one, then others—but he continued to have temporal lobe seizures almost daily and two or more grand mal seizures a month. Finally, after thirteen years of trying different antiepileptic medications, Stephen consulted another neurologist for evaluation and consideration of possible surgery.
In 1990, Stephen had surgery to remove an epileptic focus in his right temporal lobe, and he felt so much better after the surgery that he decided to wean himself off medication. Then, unfortunately, he had another car accident, after which his seizures returned. These were not responsive to medication, and he had to have much more extensive brain surgery in 1997. Nevertheless, he continues to need antiepileptic medication and to have various seizure symptoms.
Stephen feels that there has been a “metamorphosis” in his personality since the start of his seizures, that he has become “more spiritual, more creative, more artistic”—specifically, he wonders whether “the right side” of his brain (as he puts it) is being stimulated, coming to dominate him. In particular, music has assumed greater and greater importance for him. He had taken up the harmonica in his college days, and now, in his fifties, he plays “obsessively,” for hours. He often writes or draws for hours at a time, too. He feels that his personality has become “all or none”—he may be either hyperfocused or completely distracted. He has also developed a tendency to sudden rage: on one occasion, when a car cut him off, he attacked the offender physically, hurling a can at his car, then punching him. (He wonders, in retrospect, whether some seizure activity played a part in this.) Despite all his problems, Stephen L. is able to continue working in medical research, and he remains an engaging, sensitive, and creative person.
There was little that Gowers or his contemporaries could do for patients with complex or focal seizures, other than giving them sedative drugs like bromides. Many patients with epilepsy, especially temporal lobe epilepsy, were considered to be “medically intractable” until the introduction of the first specific antiepileptic drug in the 1930s—and even then the most severely affected patients could not be helped. But the 1930s also saw a much more radical, surgical approach, undertaken by Wilder Penfield, a brilliant young American neurosurgeon working in Montreal, and his colleague Herbert Jasper. In order to remove the epileptic focus in the cerebral cortex, Penfield and Jasper first had to find it by mapping the patient’s temporal lobe, and this required the patient to be fully conscious. (Local anesthesia is used when opening the skull, but the brain itself is insensitive to touch and pain.) Over a twenty-year period, the “Montreal procedure” was carried out in more than five hundred patients with temporal lobe epilepsy. These people had very diverse seizure symptoms, but forty or so of them had what Penfield termed “experiential seizures,” in which, seemingly, a fixed and vivid memory of the past would suddenly burst into the mind with hallucinatory force, causing a doubling of consciousness: a patient would feel equally that he was in the operating room in Montreal and that he was, say, riding horseback in a forest. By systematically going over the surface of the exposed temporal cortex with his electrodes, Penfield was able to find particular cortical points in each patient where stimulation caused a sudden, involuntary recall—an experiential seizure.45 Removal of these points could prevent further such seizures, without affecting the memory itself.
Penfield described many examples of experiential seizures:
At operation it is usually quite clear that the evoked experiential response is a random reproduction of whatever composed the stream of consciousness during some interval of the patient’s past life. . . . It may have been a time of listening to music, a time of looking in at the door of a dance hall, a time of imagining the action of robbers from a comic strip . . . a time of lying in the delivery room at birth, a time of being frightened by a menacing man, a time of watching people enter the room with snow on their clothes. . . . It may have been a time of standing on the corner of Jacob and Washington, South Bend, Indiana.
Penfield’s notion of actual memories or experiences being reactivated has been disputed. We now know that memories are not fixed or frozen, like Proust’s jars of preserves in a larder, but are transformed, disassembled, reassembled, and recategorized with every act of recollection.46
