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See A.‘s letter for explanation, more or less, of that specific hour and date: the 6th something of the 6th something else of the 6th 6th 6th 6th what-have-you.

Peter, Peter, Peter! and poor Joe!

Bloodsworth Island. We went down there after all on that Sunday morning, 24 August, after I’d reported to you the bad news of Peter’s diagnosis and Ambrose had telephoned you, much distraught, late that Saturday night, in reply to your letter. (On the matter of your writing to him, after half a year’s silence to me, I shall not speak.) And as he mentioned in his subsequent letter from Barataria on the Monday morning — typed with his left hand because his right was out of action and I was too busy with hysterical Merry Bernstein to do his writing for him — a lively time was had by all.

Ambrose was, you understand, feeling as emptied—by his mother’s death, by Peter’s crisis, by M. M. Co.‘s final bankruptcy, by his abandonment of that lovely Perseus project and his longtime pseudonymity — as I, in the 3rd loving week of our “mutuality,” was feeling filled. We went down there, despite our then distress, for the same reason that we will go forward with our wedding plans despite our even greater bereavement now: because Magda (and, back then, dear Peter) insisted. We wound down through your endless marshes — still, steaming, buggy — across the labyrinth of shallow waterways and distant loblolly pines in Backwater Wildlife Refuge, where I saw my first American eagle, down past Crapo and Tedious Creek to Bishops Head, at the lonely tail of Dorchester County. I thought uncomfortably of Ambrose’s having brought Bea Golden through these same marshes in July, at the beginning of hateful Stage 5, to roger her up and down the beach whilst I stewed and fretted in my flapper drag up in Dorset Heights… A hundred years ago!

But clearly, and fortunately, nothing of the sort was on my lover’s mind. I distracted him as best I could with bird and marsh plant and movie questions, but his eyes kept filling at the thought of poor Peter, poor Magda. We left our little car at the road’s end, where nothing is but a fisherman’s shack and pier, open water on three sides, and, across a mile-wide strait, low-lying, marshy Bloodsworth. Several other empty cars were parked there, among them a black limousine I knew to be Jane Mack’s — but no one was about. We wondered. Presently a lad puttered up in a “Hooper’s Island workboat” (A.’s designation) full of crab pots, and ferried us across to Cook’s lodge: a cheerful young Charon who would not accept our proffered fare.

So this, thought I, is where they fucked. Well well. There was in fact no beach, only tidal mud flats, spartina grass, cattails. A brown “gut” of water marked with stakes led to Cook’s dock; “Barataria” was a modest but comfortable white frame house, a small caretaker’s cottage, a flagpole, grass doing badly on a sandy lawn. A few crabbing skiffs and a runabout were tied at the pier; a few untidy young people loitered about (refugees from the Remobilisation Farm, they looked to me); a few mosquitoes and biting green flies said hello to us.

Where was the movie? It would arrive after lunch, Cook’s caretaker told us: a wizened, brown-burnt, friendly local whose “down-county” accent defied my ear and whose employer was off with Prinz & Co. The grips — they were indeed from Fort Erie — showed us crude sets of which they were inordinately proud, meant to represent the U.S. Capitol and the President’s House in 1814. “Gonna burn them fuckers, come dark,” etc. We were given lunch. The main company of Frames, it seemed, were shooting across the Bay, where the British had landed and reboarded after their remarkable expedition. They would return by boat sometime that afternoon.

Nothing to do but sip iced tea, worry about Peter, watch the hippies smoke dope, and wish we hadn’t come so early, or at least had brought along the Times. We were, you remember, winding up our week of ritual Abstinence, the Echo of our Reenactment of et cetera. We agreed that Monday would be welcome, family crisis or no. I found in Cook’s library a Mr Glen Tucker’s Poltroons & Patriots: A Popular Account of the War of 1812 in two volumes (1954) and did a spot of homework. Ambrose made desultory notes on his scenario.

Not till afternoon’s end did the others finally arrive, in a fine big motor yacht named Baratarian. It belonged, we assumed, to the lord of Barataria Lodge: the laureate poet and new Distinguished Visiting Lecturer in English at Marshyhope State University. He was in any case conspicuously aboard, along with a paid captain and a crowd of others, including Reg Prinz, our old chums Bruce and Brice, and that Rising Young Starlet Merope Bernstein, of Fort Erie and Scajaquada fame.