Angelet and Bersaba. They were identical twins, but their alikeness stopped at their physical appearance. Angelet was gentle and mild in her innocence. While Bersaba was dark and devious in her overwhelming sensuality. They hadnever been apart - until Bersaba became ill. Angelet was immediately packed off to London. There she met and married Richard Tolworthy and went to live at the handsome, brooding manor house at Far Flamstead. Bersaba had always thought she would be the first to wed. Recovered, she went to visit the newlyweds with more jealousy than joy in her heart. Nothing could have prepared her for the secrets she discovered there. Secrets of a carefully hidden past that could unleash dangerous passions and forever separate her from the sister she had always loved...
YESTERDAY, the twelfth day of June in the year sixteen hundred and thirty-nine, was our seventeenth birthday-mine and Bersaba’s. It was fitting that we should be born in June, the birth sign of which is Gemini, for we are twins. In our family birthdays are always celebrated as joyous occasions. Our mother is responsible for that. There are certain women in our family who are born to be mothers and she is one of them.
I don’t think I am; I’m certain Bersaba isn’t. But perhaps I am mistaken because it can be a quality which is only discovered when one reaches the state of motherhood, and one thing I have learned is that one can be mistaken about a great deal, which is one of the less gratifying experiences of growing up. I once remarked to Bersaba that every birthday our mother thanked God for giving us to her and Bersaba answered that she did it every day. My mother, Tamsyn Landor, was married five years before our brother Fennimore was born and then another seven years elapsed before she gave birth to us-her twins. I believe she had wanted a large family, but now she would say she had just what she wanted, for she is a woman who can adjust existing conditions to her dreams of contentment, which I am old enough to know is a rare gift.
We had the usual birthday celebrations. June is a lovely month for a birthday because so much of it can be celebrated out of doors. On our birthday it became a ritual that if the day was fine we rode out into the meadows and there we would feast off cold poultry and what we called West Country Tarts, pastry cases with the fruit of the season-strawberries for our birthday-in them and custard or clouted cream on the top, which were a very special delicacy. Of course there had been rainy birthdays, and on these occasions the friends and neighbors who joined us would come to the house, where we would play games such as blindman’s buff or hunt the slipper, and then we would dress up and act charades or produce the plays which we had seen the mummers do at Christmastime. Whatever the weather, birthdays were days to be looked forward to, and I had said every year to Bersaba that as ours was two in one it should be extra special.
On this particular birthday the weather had been fine and we had been out into the meadows and the young people from Kroll Manor and Trent Park had joined us. We had played ball games and kayleswhich consisted of knocking down pins with a stick or a ball-and after that hide-and-seek, during which Bersaba had not been found and caused a certain anxiety because our mother was always afraid that something terrible would happen to us. We were an hour searching for Bersaba, and finally she gave herself up. She looked hurt when she saw how worried our mother had been, but I, who knew her so well, guessed that she was gratified to be so worried about. Bersaba often seemed as though she wanted to assure herself that she was important to us. We all went back to Trystan Priory, our home, and there were more games and feasting and just before dark servants came from Kroll Manor and Trent Park to take our friends home and that was the end of another birthday we thought. But it was not so. Our mother came to our room. We had always shared a room. Sometimes I thought that now we were growing up we should have separate apartments-there were plenty of rooms in the Priory-but I waited for Bersaba to suggest it, and I think perhaps she was waiting for me to do so, and as neither of us did we went on in the old way. Our mother looked rather solemn.
She sat down on the big carved chair which Bersaba and I used to fight over when we were young. It was a wonderful chair with griffins at the end of the arms. I always felt I had the advantage when I sat in that chair, and as Bersaba felt the same there was competition to get there first. Now our mother sat there and looked at us with that benign affection which I took for granted then and remembered with nostalgia later on.
“Seventeen,” she said. “It’s a turning point. You’re no longer children, you know.” Bersaba sat quietly, her hands in her lap. Bersaba was a quiet person. I was scarcely that. I often wondered why people said they couldn’t tell us apart. Although we looked identical, our natures were so different that that should have been an indication. “Next year,” went on our mother, “you’ll be eighteen. There’ll be a different birthday party for you. It will be more grown up and there won’t be games such as you’ve been playing today.”
“I suppose we shall have a ball,” I said, and I could not keep the excitement out of my voice, for I loved dancing and I excelled at it.
“Yes, and you will be meeting more people. I was talking to your father about it last time he was home, and he agreed with me.”
I wondered idly if they had ever disagreed about anything. I couldn’t believe they ever had.
