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‘I’m going to deal with Madame Zhou. I’m going to clear the slate. Khaled gave…’ I broke off, the words failing, and the thought of Khaled Ansari momentarily bleaching my mind with the mention of his name. It was a white blizzard of emotion storming from the last memory, the last image of him, walking away into the night and the snow. I pushed past it with an effort of will. ‘Khaled gave me your note in Pakistan. Thanks for letting me know, by the way. I still don’t really get it. I still don’t know how she got so mad that she had to put me in jail. There was never anything personal in it, from my side. But it’s personal now. Four months in Arthur Road made it personal. That’s why I need the bike. I don’t want to use cabs. And that’s why I’ve got to get my passport tidied up. If the cops get in on it, I’ll need a clean book to hand over.’

‘But you don’t know? Madame Zhou was attacked last week-no, ten days ago. The mob, a mob of Sena people, they attacked her Palace and destroyed it. There was a great fire. They ran inside the building and they destroyed everything, then they put the place on fire. The building still stands. The staircases and the upstairs rooms still exist. But the place is ruined, and it will never again open. They will pull it down at some time soon. The building is finished, Lin, and so is she, La Madame.’

‘Is she dead?’ I asked through clenched teeth.

‘No. She is alive. And she is still there, so they say. But her power is destroyed. She has nothing. She is nothing. She is a beggar. Her servants are searching the streets for scraps of food to bring to her while she waits for the building to come down. She is finished, Lin.’

‘Not quite. Not yet.’

I moved to the door of his apartment, and he ran to join me. It was the fastest I’d ever seen him move, and I smiled at the strangeness of it.

‘Please, Lin, will you not reconsider this action? We can sit here, together, and drink a bottle or two, non? You will calm down.’

‘I’m calm enough now,’ I replied, smiling at his concern for me. ‘I don’t know… what I’m going to do. But I have to close the door on this, Didier. I can’t just… let it go. I wish I could. But there’s too much that’s-I don’t know-tied up in it, I guess.’

I couldn’t explain it to him. It was more than just revenge-I knew that-but the web of connections between Zhou, Khaderbhai, Karla, and me was so sticky with shame and secrets and betrayals that I couldn’t bring myself to face it clearly or talk about it to my friend.

‘Bien,’ he sighed, reading the determination in my face. ‘If you must go to her, then I will come with you.’

‘No way-’ I began, but he cut me off with a furious gesture of his hand.

‘Lin! I am the one who told you of this… this horrible thing she did to you. Now I must go with you, or I will be responsible for all that happens. And you know, my friend, that I hate responsibility almost as much as I hate the police.’

DIDIER LEVY was the worst pillion passenger I’ve ever known. He held on to me so tightly, and with such rigid tensity, that it was difficult to steer the bike. He howled as we approached cars, and shrieked when we sped up to pass them. On critical, sweeping turns he wriggled in terror, trying to straighten the bike from its necessary lean into the curve. Every time I stopped the bike at a traffic signal, he put both feet down to the ground to stretch his legs and moan about the cramps in his hips. Every time I accelerated away, he dragged his feet on the road and fidgeted for several seconds until he found the footrests. And when taxis or other cars ventured too close to us, he kicked out at them or waved his fist in frantic outrage. By the time we reached our destination, I calculated that the danger faced during a thirty-minute ride in fast traffic with Didier was roughly equivalent to a month under fire in Afghanistan.

I pulled up outside the factory run by my Sri Lankan friends Villu and Krishna. Something was wrong. The signs outside had changed, and the double front doors were wide open. I went up the steps and leaned inside to see that the passport workshop was gone, replaced by an assembly line producing garlands of flowers.

‘There is something wrong?’ Didier asked as I climbed back on the bike and kicked the starter.

‘Yeah. We have to make another stop. They’ve moved it. I’ll have to see Abdul to find out where the new workshop is.’

‘Alors,’ he whined, squeezing me as tightly as if we were sharing a parachute. ‘The nightmare, it goes on!’