She put down her wineglass and he thought that she might cry. She said: Yes, they are. It's not fair that I have all the nice things I have and they have nothing. I understand that, I really do. Once I had black friends. But I'm afraid. And I hate them because they make me afraid. And that truck driver, the way they dragged him owt and beat him half to death. .
Another guest had come in quietly from the pool while they were talking, and he was black.
The black man said: So you've hated me for a week. I've hated you for half a thousand years. Nothing personal.
My friends, my friends! cried the host, waving his hands. Don't listen to what you're both saying; it's just the stress and this awful air. .
The long weary pushbroom whose dark bristles were as kinky as pubic hairs dragged itself attached to a man's ami and hand. It was very late. Two children sat drinking sodas and playing with straws and crying out: What's your name? — When the man's toil brought him near enough, they shouted their question at him in shrill excited voices. — Get Up Mess is my name, the man responded. That's what they call me. You make a mess and they call me get up mess. — The next man sat chewing gum and resting on the sides of his feet. — What's your name? called the little ones. — Sir, the man replied, his eyes shining like the cross on the chain around his neck.
Now it was ten-o'-clock in this tiled cave like an immense toilet, and the buses pulsed outside, and now it was eleven-o'-clock, and then it was midnight. The two children snored with their mouths open. Their mother's eyes closed slowly, and then a security guard came and shook her shoulder. The guard left the children alone. The buses all seemed to be either absent, gone, or out of sight. Half-asleep people queued or leaned. Only the escalators moved, winding remorselessly up and down like the treads of some monstrous tank turned turtle. A man fell asleep on the silver coast between escalators.
Not tonight, a ticket agent was saying to a sad man. Not unless you want to sleep in the terminal in Hartford.
Finally light burst out at the side of a bus outside, and it sped away. Then in the darkness another bus came speeding, and he who waited and watched knew that she was on it, but then it kept speeding and was gone. A man sagged against the wall, curling his fingers against the side of his head, and slept.
Then suddenly another long bus angled in and upflung its sidehatch to unchoke itself of suitcases which were taken like medicine into the hands of people who then gave themselves to the emptiness between escalator railings and were accordingly transfigured, decapitated, unbreasted, waistcut, kneesplit, anklesliced and then gone, leaving not even the soles of their shoes behind.
Another bus swam rapidly by, so that his heart rose and fell again.
He saw a sleeping woman who resembled her blurrily. The security guard shook her, and she woke and looked into his eyes.
What's your name? he said on impulse.
Sweetheart. You wanna date? What's
Gonorrhea, he said.
You sound like my type, the woman laughed. Let's go.
The security guard was still there, so he said: And what's your name, sir?
Fuck You, said the security guard.
Oh, said the woman. I guess he's my type, too. At least that's what all the men do to me.
He took her hand and they went out. — What's your name? he said to the taxi driver.
Go To Hell, the driver said, and he stepped on the gas and sped them straight there. .
In that street the Thai criers wore suits and ties. They looked at me in contempt or else they said: Japanese only! or they shouted: Members only!
How can I become a member? I said. How can I become Japanese?
But to this they had no answer.
At last I found a manager who led me upstairs personally. His place had been open for only two weeks. He could not afford to exclude me.
It was nothing but a long narrow lounge without windows. There were not even any girls at first, not until they brought in Ting.
She was dressed in a kimono and she spoke English like a Japanese. When she haltingly sang a karaoke love-song, she sang
Oh, are you a virgin? I said.
The woman on the other side of me, more experienced, probably sent to encourage and spy on Ting (who had been there only a week), laughed, patted her own rear and said: Me virgin here.
