"This is the description of his feelings on getting engaged to Norma Hailsham," he commented aloud. "It sounds rather superior, as if he felt he’d conferred a distinct favour on her in the matter. Apparently, even in the first flush of young love, he thought that he wasn’t getting all that his merits deserved. I don’t think Miss Hailsham would have been flattered if she’d been able to read this at the time."
He passed rapidly over some other passages without audible comment, and then halted for a few moments at an entry.
"Now we come to his meeting with Mrs. Silverdale, and his first impressions of her. It seems that she attracted him by her physique rather than by her brains. Of course, as he observes: ‘What single woman could fully satisfy all the sides of a complex nature like mine?’ However, he catalogues Mrs. Silverdale’s attractions lavishly enough."
Flamborough, with a recollection of the passage in his mind, smiled cynically.
"That side of his complex nature was highly developed, I should judge," he affirmed. "It runs through the stuff from start to finish."
Sir Clinton turned over a few more pages.
"It seems as though Miss Hailsham began to have some inklings of his troubles," he said, looking up from the book. "This is the bit where he’s complaining about the limitations in women’s outlooks, you remember. Apparently he’d made his fiancée feel that his vision took a wider sweep than she imagined, and she seems to have suggested that he needn’t spend so much time in staring at Mrs. Silverdale. It’s quite characteristic that in this entry he’s suddenly discovered that the Hailsham girl’s hands fail to reach the standard of beauty which he thinks essential in a life-companion. He has visions of sitting in suppressed irritation while these hands pour out his breakfast coffee every day through all the years of marriage. It seems to worry him quite a lot."
"You’ll find that kind of thing developing as you go on, sir. The plain truth is that he was tiring of the girl and he simply jotted down everything he could see in her that he didn’t find good enough for him."
Sir Clinton glanced over the next few entries.
"So I see, Inspector. Now it seems her dancing isn’t so good as he used to think it was."
"Any stick to beat a dog with," the Inspector surmised.
"Now they seem to have got the length of a distinct tiff, and he rushes at once to jot down a few bright thoughts on jealousy with a quotation from Mr. Wells in support of his thesis. It appears that this ‘entanglement,’ as he calls it, is cramping his individuality and preventing the full self-expression of his complex nature. I can’t imagine how we got along without that word ‘self-expression’ when we were young. It’s a godsend. I trust the inventor got a medal."
"The next entry’s rather important, sir," Flamborough warned him.
"Ah! Here we are. We come to action for a change instead of all this wash of talk. This is the final burst-up, eh? H’m!"
He read over the entry thoughtfully.
"Well, the Hailsham girl seems to have astonished him when it came to the pinch. Even deducting everything for his way of looking at things, she must have been fairly furious. And Yvonne Silverdale’s name seems to have entered pretty deeply into the discussion. ‘She warned me she knew more than I thought she did; and that she’d make me pay for what I was doing.’ And again: ‘She said she’d stick at nothing to get even with me.’ It seems to have been rather a vulgar scene, altogether. ‘She wasn’t going to be thrown over for that woman without having her turn when it came.’ You know, Inspector, it sounds a bit vindictive, even when it’s filtered through him into his journal. The woman scorned, and hell let loose, eh? I’m not greatly taken with the picture of Miss Hailsham."
"A bit of a virago," the Inspector agreed. "What I was wondering when I read that stuff was whether she’d keep up to that standard permanently or whether this was just a flash in the pan. If she’s the kind that treasures grievances. . . ."
"She might be an important piece in the jigsaw, you mean? In any case, I suppose we’ll have to get her sized up somehow, since she plays a part in the story."
The Chief Constable turned back to the journal and skimmed over a number of the entries.
"Do you know," he pointed out after a time, "that young fellow had an unpleasant mind."
"You surprise me," the Inspector retorted ironically. "I suppose you’ve come to the place where he gets really smitten with Mrs. Silverdale’s charms?"
"Yes. There’s a curious rising irritation through it all. It’s evident that she led him on, and then let him down, time after time."
"For all his fluff about his complex character and so forth, he really seems to have been very simple," was Flamborough’s verdict. "She led him a dance for months; and anyone with half an eye could see all along that she was only playing with him. It’s as plain as print, even in his own account of the business."
