For a long time he considered the penitent Joseph who now, instead of imitating Judas or Christ, had taken flight and thus once again put himself into God’s hand. Shame and dejection grew in him the more plainly he recognized the hell from which he had just escaped. After a while his misery lumped in his throat like a choking morsel. It grew into an unbearable sense of oppression, and suddenly found release in a torrent of tears that miraculously helped him. How long he had been unable to weep! The tears flowed, his eyes were blurred, but the deadly strangulation was eased, and when he became aware of himself again, tasted the salt on his lips, and realized that he had been weeping, he felt for a moment as if he had become a child again and knew nothing of evil. He smiled, slightly ashamed of his weeping. At last he rose and continued his journey. He felt uncertain, for he did not know where his flight was leading him and what would become of him. He was like a child, he thought, but there was no longer any conflict or will within him. He moved on easily, as if he were being led, as if a distant, kind voice were calling and coaxing him, as if his journey were not a flight but a homecoming. Now he was growing tired, and reason too fell still, or rested, or decided that it was dispensable.
Joseph spent the night at a water hole where several camels and a small company of travelers were camped. Since there were two women among them, he contented himself with a gesture of greeting and avoided falling into talk. After he had eaten a few dates at sunset, prayed, and lain down to rest, he overheard the conversation between two men, one old and one somewhat younger, for they were lying close by him. It was only a fragment of their talk that he could hear; the rest was lost in whispers. But even this small passage stirred his interest. It gave him matter for thought through half the night.
“All right,” he heard the old man’s voice saying. “It’s fine that you want to go to a pious man and make your confession. These people understand many things, let me tell you. They know a thing or two, and some of them are skilled in magic. When they just call out a word to a springing lion, the beast crouches, tucks his tail between his legs, and slinks away. They can tame lions, I tell you. One of them was so holy that his tame lions actually dug him his grave when he died, neatly scraped the earth into a mound over him, and for a long time two of them kept watch over the grave day and night. And it isn’t only lions they can tame, these people. One of them gave a Roman centurion a piece of his mind. That was a cruel bastard, that soldier, and the worst whoreson in all Ascalon. But the hermit so kneaded his wicked heart that the man stole away frightened as a mouse and looked for a hole to hide in. Afterward he was almost unrecognizable, he’d become so quiet and meek. On the other hand, the man died soon afterward — that’s something to think about.”
“The holy man?”
“Oh no, the centurion. His name was Varro. After the holy man gave him such a jolt, he went to pieces fast — had the fever twice and was a dead man three months later. Oh well, no great loss. But still, I’ve often thought the hermit didn’t just drive the devil out of him. He probably said a little spell that put the man six feet under.”
“Such a pious man? I can’t believe that.”
“Believe it or not, my friend, but from that day on the man was changed, not to say bewitched, and three months later…”
There was silence for a little while. Then the younger man revived the conversation: “There’s a holy man who must live somewhere right around here. They say he lives all alone near a small spring on the Gaza road. His name is Josephus, Josephus Famulus. I’ve heard a lot about him.”
“Have you now? Like what?”
“He’s supposed to be awfully pious and never to look at a woman. If a few camels happen to come by his place and there’s a woman on one of them, no matter how heavily veiled, he just bolts into his cave. Lots of people have gone to confess to him — thousands.”
“I guess he can’t be so famous or else I would have heard of him. What kind of thing does he do, this Famulus of yours?”
“Oh, you just go to confess to him, and I suppose people wouldn’t go if he wasn’t good and didn’t understand things. The story is he hardly says a word, doesn’t scold or bawl anyone out, doesn’t order penances or anything like that. He’s supposed to be gentle and shy.”
“But if he doesn’t scold and doesn’t punish and doesn’t open his mouth, what does he do?”
“They say he just listens and sighs marvelously and makes the sign of the cross.”
“Sounds like a quack saint to me. You wouldn’t be so foolish as to apply to this silent Joe, would you?”
“Yes, that’s what I mean to do. I’ll find him. It can’t be much farther from here. This evening there was a poor monk standing around the waterhole here, you know. I’m going to ask him tomorrow morning. He looks like a hermit himself.”
