I found a minicab, I took it to Forio, to Bruno’s house. I called, no one looked out. I wandered through the town feeling more and more depressed, then I set out to walk along the beach. And this time chance apparently decided in my favor. I had been walking for a long time when I saw before me Nino: he was happy we had met, a barely controlled happiness. His eyes were too bright, his gestures excited, his voice overwrought.
“I looked for the two of you yesterday and today. Where’s Lina?”
“With her husband.”
He took an envelope out of his pants pocket, he shoved it into my hand too forcefully.
“Can you give her this?”
I was annoyed. “It’s pointless, Nino.”
“Give it to her.”
“Tonight we’re leaving, we’ll go back to Naples.”
He had an expression of suffering, he said hoarsely, “Who decided?”
“She did.”
“I don’t believe it.”
“It’s true, she told me last night.”
He thought for a moment, pointed to the envelope.
“Please, give her that anyway, right away.”
“All right.”
“Swear that you will.”
“I told you, yes.”
He walked with me for a long way, saying spiteful things about his mother and his brothers and sister. They tormented me, he said, luckily they went back to Barano. I asked him about Bruno. He made a gesture of irritation, he was studying, he said mean things about him as well.
“And you’re not studying?”
“I can’t.”
His head sank between his shoulders, he grew melancholy. He began to talk about the mistakes one makes because a professor, as a result of his own problems, leads you to believe you’re smart. He realized that the things he wanted to learn had never really interested him.
“What do you mean? Suddenly?”
“A moment is enough to change the direction of your life completely.”
What was happening to him, with these banal words, I no longer recognized him. I vowed I would help him return to himself.
“You’re upset now, and you don’t know what you’re saying,” I said in my best sensible tone. “But as soon as you return to Naples we can see each other, if you want, and talk.”
He nodded yes, but right afterward cried angrily, “I’m finished with the university, I want to find a job.”
63.
He came with me almost to the house, so that I was afraid of meeting Stefano and Lila. I said goodbye in a hurry and went up the stairs.
“Tomorrow morning at nine,” he shouted.
I stopped.
“If we leave I’ll see you in the neighborhood. Look for me there.”
Nino made a sign of no, decisively.
“You won’t leave,” he said, as if he were giving a threatening order to fate.
I gave him a final wave and hurried up the stairs sorry that I hadn’t had a chance to examine what was in the envelope.
In the house I found an unpleasant atmosphere. Stefano and Nunzia were whispering together. Lila must be in the bathroom or the bedroom. When I went in they both looked at me resentfully. Stefano said grimly, without preamble, “Will you tell me what you and she are getting up to?”
“In what sense?”
“She says she’s tired of Ischia, she wants to go to Amalfi.”
“I don’t know anything about it.”
Nunzia intervened but not in her usual motherly way.
“Lenù, don’t put wrong ideas in her head, you can’t throw money out the window. What does Amalfi have to do with anything? We’ve paid to stay here until September.”
I got mad, I said, “You are both mistaken: it’s I who do what Lina wants, not the opposite.”
“Then go and tell her to be reasonable,” Stefano muttered. “I’ll be back next week, we’ll be together for the mid-August holiday and you’ll see, I’ll show you a good time. But now I don’t want to hear any nonsense. Shit. You think I’ll take you to Amalfi? And if you don’t like Amalfi, where do I take you, to Capri? And then? Cut it out, Lenù.”
His tone intimidated me.
“Where is she?” I asked.
Nunzia indicated the bedroom. I went to Lila sure that I would find the suitcases packed and her determined to leave, even at the risk of a beating. Instead she was in her slip, and was sleeping on the unmade bed. All around was the usual disorder, but the suitcases were piled in a corner, empty. I shook her.
“Lila.”
She started, asked me right away with a look veiled by sleep: “Where have you been, did you see Nino?”
“Yes. This is for you.”
I gave her the envelope reluctantly. She opened it, took out a sheet of paper. She read it and in a flash became radiant, as if an injection of stimulants had swept away drowsiness and despair.
“What does it say?” I asked cautiously.
“To me nothing.”
“So?”
“It’s for Nadia, he’s leaving her.”
She put the letter back in the envelope and gave it to me, urging me to keep it carefully hidden.
I stood, confused, with the envelope in my hands. Nino was leaving Nadia? And why? Because Lila had asked him to? So she would win? I was disappointed. He was sacrificing the daughter of Professor Galiani to the game that he and the wife of the grocer were playing. I said nothing, I stared at Lila while she got dressed, put on her makeup. Finally I said, “Why did you ask Stefano that absurd thing, to go to Amalfi? I don’t understand you.”
She smiled.
“I don’t, either.”
