Shardan Lim was showing his impatience. His crassness. He was even now in the sitting room, sweaty, his eyes dilated with pathetic needs. He was nothing like what he pretended to be, once the facade of sophisticated lechery was plucked aside. The charm, the sly winks, the suave lie.
This entire damned world, she knew, consisted of nothing but thin veneers. The illusion of beauty survived not even a cursory second look. Cheap and squalid, this was the truth of things. He could paint it up all he liked, the stains on the sheets remained.
Barefooted, she set out to meet him. Imagining the whispers of the staff, the maids and servants, the guards — never within range of her hearing, of course. That would not do. Propriety must be maintained at all costs. They’d wait for her to pass, until she was out of sight. It was their right, after all, their reward for a lifetime of servitude, for all that bowing and scraping, for all the gestures meant to convince her and people like her that she was in fact superior to them. The noble bloods, the rich merchants, the famous families and all the rest.
When the truth was, luck and mischance were the only players in the game of success. Privilege of birth, a sudden harmony of forces, a sudden inexplicable balance later seen as a run of good fortune. Oh, they might strut about —
Servants bowed, and that they needed to do so was proof of just how flimsy the delusion of superiority was.
She opened the door and walked with dignity into the sitting room. ‘Councillor Lim, have you been left here alone? No one to provide you with refreshments? This is unacceptable-’
‘I sent her away,’ he cut in, and she saw that his expression was strange, con shy;flicted by something but in a most peculiar way.
‘You have not even poured yourself some wine. Allow me-’
‘No, thank you, Lady Challice. Although, perhaps, I should pour you one. Yes.’
And he went over to select a decanter and then a goblet. She watched the amber wine slosh into the crystal, and then flow over before he righted the decanter. He stared down at the goblet for a moment, and then faced her. ‘Lady Challice, I have terrible news.’
He stepped forward. ‘Challice-’
All at once, she sensed that something was deeply awry. He was too excited with his news. He was hungry to see its effect on her. He had no interest in using her body this night. And here she had arrived dressed like a fancy whore. ‘Forgive me,’ she said, stepping back and attempting to draw the shift more modestly about her.
He barely registered the gesture. ‘Challice. Gorlas has been murdered. Your husband is dead.’
‘Murdered? But he’s still out at the mining camp. He’s-’ and then she stopped, stunned at how disbelief could so swiftly become certainty.
‘Assassinated, out at the camp,’ Shardan Lim said. ‘Was it a contract? I can’t imagine who would. .’ And then he too fell silent, and the regard he fixed upon her now was suddenly sharp, piercing.
She could not face the question he looked ready to ask, and so she went to col shy;lect the goblet, unmindful of the wine spilling over her hand, and drank deep.
He had moved to one side and still he said nothing as he watched her.
Challice felt light-headed, unbalanced. She was having trouble thinking. Feel shy;ings and convictions, which arrived first? Truths and dreads — she was finding it hard to breathe.
‘Challice,’ Shardan Lim whispered, suddenly standing close. ‘There were other ways. You could have come to me. If this comes out, you will hang — do you un shy;derstand me? It will take your father down — the entire House D’Arle. The whole Council will be rocked to its very foundations. Hood’s breath, Challice — if anyone discovers the truth-’
She turned to him and her voice was flat as she said, ‘What truth? What are you talking about, Councillor? My husband has been murdered. I expect you and the Council to conduct an investigation. The assassin must be found and punished. Thank you for taking upon yourself the difficult task of informing me. Now, please, leave me, sir.’
He was studying her as if he had never truly seen her before, and then he stepped away and shook his head. ‘I’d no idea, Challice. That you were this. .’
‘That I was what, Councillor?’
‘It may be. . ah, that is, you are within your rights to claim the seat on the Council. Or arrange that someone of your own choosing-’
‘Councillor Lim, such matters must wait. You are being insensitive. Please, will you now leave?’
‘Of course, Lady Challice.’
When he was gone, she stood unmoving, the goblet still in one hand, the spilled wine sticky under her fingers.
