What do I have left?
Whatever it was, the time had come to drink deep, to use it all. One last time. Nimander straightened.
‘Desra? Skintick? Anyone?’
His words drew echoes, and they were the only replies he received.
Nimander drew his sword, and then set out. In the direction of that mocking laughter.
Ribbons of light swam in the air on all sides.
He encountered no walls, felt no wayward currents of air. The folded bedrock beneath his feet undulated randomly, angling neither upward nor downward for long, uneven enough to make him stumble every now and then, and once to land on his knees with a painful, stinging jolt.
Lost. Not a single sound to betray where Clip might be now.
Yes, this was a clever end for Nimander, one that must have given Clip moments of delicious anticipation. Lost in darkness. Lost to his kin. To his Lord, and to a future that now would never arrive. So perfect, so precise, this punishment-
‘Enough of that, you pathetic creature.’
Phaed.
‘They’re here, you fool. As lost as you.’
What? Who? Leave me be. I told you, I’m sorry. For what happened to you, for what I tried to do. I’m sorry-
‘Too late for that. Besides, you don’t understand. I lived in fear. I lived in per shy;petual terror. Of everything. Of all of you. That I’d be found out. Can you imagine, Nimander, what that was like? To live was torture, to dread an end even worse. Oh, I knew it was coming. It had to. People like me win for only so long, before someone notices — and then his face fills with disgust, and he crushes me underfoot.
‘Or throws me out of a window.’
Please, no more-
‘They’re here. Desra, Skintick. Sweet Aranatha. Find them.’
How?
‘I can’t do this for you. Shouts will go unheard. There are layers to this place. Layers and layers and layers. You could have walked right through one of them and known nothing. Nimander Golit, the blood of our Lord is within you. The blood of Eleint, too — is that the secret? Is that the one weapon Clip did not know you possess? How could he know? How could anyone? We have suppressed it within ourselves for so long now-’
Because Andarist told us to!
‘Because Andarist told us to. Because he was bitter. And hurting. He thought he could take his brother’s children and make them his own, more his own than Rake’s.’
Nenanda-
‘Had the thinnest blood of all. We knew that. You knew it, too. It made him too predictable. It killed him. Brother, father, son — these layers are so precious, aren’t they? Look on them again, my lover, my killer, but this time. . with a dragon’s eyes.’
But, Phaed, I don’t know how! How do I do that?
She had no answer. No, it would never be that simple, would it? Phaed was not an easy memory, not a gentle ghost. Nor his wise conscience. She was none of that.
Just one more kin whose blood stained Nimander’s hands.
He had stopped walking. He stood now, surrounded by oblivion.
‘My hands,’ he whispered. And then slowly lifted them. ‘Stained,’ he said. ‘Yes, stained.’
The blood of kin. The blood of Tiste Andii. The blood of dragons.
That shines like beacons. That call, summon, can cast outward until-
A woman’s hand reached out as if from nowhere, closing round one of his own in a cold grip.
And all at once she was before him, her eyes like twin veils, parting to reveal a depthless, breathtaking love.
