ouvrir unc carriere,’ she said, repeating a phrase Pierre had once uttere
‘No, the real thing is that to Nikolay,’ said Pierre, ‘thoughts and ide; are an amusement, almost a pastime. Here he’s forming a library and h; made it a rule not to buy a new book till he has read through the last h has bought—Sismondi and Rousseau and Moniesquieu,’ Pierre adde
with a smile. ‘You know how I-,’ he was beginning to soften his crit
cism; but Natasha interrupted, giving him thereby to understand tha that was not necessary.
‘So you say ideas to him are not serious . . .’
‘Yes, and to me nothing else is serious. All the while I was in Peters burg, I seemed to be seeing every one in a dream. When I am absorbed b; an idea, nothing else is serious.’
‘Oh, what a pity I didn’t see your meeting with the children,’ saic Natasha. ‘Which was the most pleased? Liza, of course?’
‘Yes,’ said Pierre, and he went on with what interested him. ‘Nikola} says we ought not to think. But I can’t help it. To say nothing of th( fact (I can say so to you) that in Petersburg I felt that the whole thing would go to pieces without me, every one pulled his own way. But I succeeded in bringing them all together; and then my idea is so dear and simple. I don’t say we ought to work against so and so. We may be mistaken. But I say: let those join hands who care for the good cause, and let our one standard be energy and honesty. Prince Sergey is a capital fellow, and clever.’
Natasha would have had no doubt that Pierre’s idea was a grand idea, but that one thing troubled her. It was his being her husband. ‘Is it possible that a man of such value, of such importance to society, is at the same time my husband? How can it have happened?’ She wanted to express this doubt to him. ‘Who are the persons who could decide positively whether he is so much cleverer than all of them?’ she wondered, and she went over in imagination the people who were very much respected by Pierre. There was nobody whom, to judge by his own account, he had respected so much as Platon Karataev.
‘Do you know what I am thinking about?’ she said. ‘About Platon Karataev. What would he have said? Would he have approved of you now?’
Pierre was not in the least surprised at this question. He understood the connection of his wife’s ideas.
‘Platon Karataev?’ he said, and he pondered, evidently trying sincerely to picture what Karataev’s judgment would have been on the subject. ‘He would not have understood, and yet, perhaps, he would.’
‘I like you awfully! ’ said Natasha all at once. ‘Awfully! awfully!’
‘No, he wouldn’t have approved,’ said Pierre, musing. ‘What he would have approved of is our home life. He did so like to see seemliness, happiness, peace in everything, and I could have shown him all of us with pride. You talk about separation. But you would not believe what a special feeling I have for you after separation . . .’
‘And, besides, . . Natasha was beginning.
•'No, not so. I never leave off loving you. And one couldn’t love more; ft it’s something special. . . .’ He did not finish, because their eyes meet- ig said the rest.
‘What nonsense,’ said Natasha suddenly, ‘it all is about the honeymoon jd that the greatest happiness is at first. On the contrary, now is much e best. If only you wouldn’t go away. Do you remember how we used t quarrel? And I was always in the wrong. It was always my doing. And nat we quarrelled about—I don’t remember even.’
‘Always the same thing,’ said Pierre smiling. ‘Jea . . .’
‘Don't say it, I can’t bear it,’ cried Natasha, and a cold, vindictive light yearned in her eyes. ‘Did you see her?’ she added after a pause.
‘No; and if I had, I shouldn't have known her.’
They were silent.
‘Oh! do you know, when you were talking in the study, I was looking you,’ said Natasha, obviously trying to drive away the cloud that had )me between them. ‘And do you know you are as like him as two drops It water, like the boy.’ That was what she called her baby son. ‘Ah, it’s me I went to him. . . . But I am sorry to go away.’
They were both silent for some seconds. Then all at once, at the same loment, they turned to each other and began talking. Pierre was begin- ing with self-satisfaction and enthusiasm, Natasha with a soft, happy nile. Interrupting each other, both stopped, waiting for the other to 0 on.
‘No, what is it? Tell me, tell me.’
‘No, you tell me, it wasn’t anything, only nonsense,’ said Natasha. Pierre said what he had been going to say. It was the sequel to his omplacent reflections on his success in Petersburg. It seemed to him at hat moment that he was destined to give a new direction to the progress if the whole of Russian society and of the whole world.
‘I only meant to say that all ideas that have immense results are always imple. All my idea really is that if vicious people are united and form a )ower, honest men must do the same. It’s so simple, you see.’
; ‘Yes.’
‘But what were you going to say?’
‘Oh, nothing, nonsense.’
‘No, say it though.’
