6 “The grand duke and I”: Ibid., 133
7 “In his distress, the grand duke”: Ibid., 128
8 “There were moments”: Ibid., 129
18. IN THE BEDROOM
1 “It seems to me that I was good for something else”: Kaus, 101
2 “The least rabbi of Petersburg”: Kaus, 94
19. A HOUSE COLLAPSES
1 “Get up and get out”:
2 “like the waves of the sea”: Ibid., 142
3 “Immediately afterward”: Herzen, 89
4 “That, as to my stupidity”:
5 “To show how useless this kind of order is”: Herzen, 84
6 “often slipped me useful … information”: Ibid.
7 “This is from your mother”:
20. SUMMER PLEASURES
1 “a large, stupid, clumsy girl”:
2 “I had the greatest freedom imaginable”: Ibid., 147
3 “dominant passion”: Herzen, 78
4 “On a woman’s saddle”: Ibid., 131
5 “To tell the truth”:
6 “She was tall”: Ibid., 181
7 “We bit our lips”: Ibid., 182
21. DISMISSALS AT COURT
1 “She was a living archive”:
2 “Do not come near me!”: Ibid., 150
3 “Last night, Count Lestocq and his wife”: Ibid.
4 “The empress did not have the courage”: Ibid., 151
5 “This son of a bitch”: Ibid., 140
6 “Do you remember the time”: Ibid., 141
7 “This is the effect”: Ibid.
8 “So, in order not to spoil his pleasure”: Ibid., 133
9 “only two occupations”: Ibid., 154
10 “From seven in the morning”: Ibid.
11 “One day, hear a poor dog cry”: Ibid., 159
22. MOSCOW AND THE COUNTRY
1 “Countess Shuvalova told the empress”:
2 “I know that. We will not speak of it”: Ibid., 157
3 “It was the worst I have ever had”: Ibid., 160
4 “She was mortally afraid of mice”: Ibid., 163
5 “I rode constantly all day”: Ibid., 161
6 “himself no enemy of wine”: Ibid., 163
7 “He did not know what he was saying”: Ibid.
8 “He was very cheerful”: Ibid., 161
9 “She sat by my bed”: Ibid., 164
23. CHOGLOKOV MAKES AN ENEMY
1 “one would have thought”: Herzen, 101
2 “Choglokov is a conceited fool with a swollen head”:
3 “As he could never keep”: Ibid., 167
4 “I have never in my life felt anything like the pain”: Ibid., 170
24. A BATH BEFORE EASTER AND A COACHMAN’S WHIP
1 “beautiful eyes”:
2 “her wit made one forget”: Herzen, 118
3 “seeing myself slighted”: Ibid., 120
4 “everyone was shocked and disgusted”: Ibid.
5 “I would like to see what she can do”:
6 “both took leave of their senses”: Ibid.
7 “My God!, what happened?”: Ibid., 177
8 “Wipe your cheek”: Ibid.
9 “You see how these women treat us”: Ibid.
25. OYSTERS AND AN ACTOR
1 “an extraordinary passion”:
2 “I listened to talk”: Herzen, 126
3 “If this man or someone like him”: Ibid., 124
4 “As ambassador, I have no instructions”:
26. READING, DANCING, AND A BETRAYAL
1 “of a dullness that I have never seen equaled”: Herzen, 148
2 “He was blond and foppish”: Ibid., 132
3 “Good God, what modesty!”:
4 “I was very glad to see him”: Ibid., 189
5 “And so, things went no further”: Herzen, 149
6 “The truth”:
7 “How is this, Madame Choglokova?”: Herzen, 151
27. SALTYKOV
1 “He was a born clown”:
2 “a fool in every sense”: Herzen, 132
3 “As these people”:
4 “And your wife”: Ibid., 200
5 “All that glitters”: Ibid.
6 “He was twenty-six years old”: Ibid.
7 “handsome as the dawn”: Ibid. 153 “How do you know”: Ibid., 201
8 “his favorite subject”: Herzen, 155
9 “I had to admit”:
10 “Yes, yes, but go away”: Ibid.
11 “He already believed himself”: Ibid., 202
12 “Sergei Saltykov and my wife”: Ibid.
13 “without something happening first”: Herzen, 158
14 “I must speak to you”:
15 “Madame Choglokova began”: Ibid.
16 “You will see”: Ibid.
17 “As soon as I had seen”: Ibid., 207
18 “a few words that would allow him”: Ibid.
19 “I know that you can see through them”: Ibid.
20 “He gave him”: Ibid., 208
21 “I must have been pregnant”: Herzen, 168
22 “When this happened”: Ibid., 169
23 “No one had ever seen”: Alexander, 45
24 “There was no furniture”: Herzen, 173
25 “He was dying just at a time”:
26 “I am certain that my husband”: Herzen, 184
28. THE BIRTH OF THE HEIR
1 “a pillar of salt”:
2 “Countess Shuvalova’s petticoats”: Herzen, 174
3 “a depression”:
4 “my troubles followed me”: Ibid.
5 “isolated, with no company”: Herzen, 187
6 “I had not the strength to crawl”: Ibid., 189
7 “through excess of care”: Ibid., 192
8 “I did not have a kopeck”:
9 “whatever came from the empress”: Ibid.
10 “This meant that I was”: Ibid., 229
11 “I thought him beautiful”: Ibid.
12 “until I felt strong enough”: Ibid.
13 “a singular revolution in my brain”: Herzen, 196
14 “ought to be the Breviary”: Durant, 10:435
