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In the next thirty seconds, as static crackled along the line and Kling debated asking the risky question that might prolong his misery eternally, he could not help realizing how spoiled he had been by Cindy Forrest, who, until four weeks ago at least, had been available at any hour of the day or night, and especially on Saturday, when no red-blooded American male should be left alone to weep into his wine.

“Well, I’m glad you’re okay,” Kling said at last.

“Is that why you called? I thought maybe you had another suspect for me to identify,” Nora said, and laughed.

“No, no,” Kling said. “No.” He laughed with her, immediately sobered, and quickly said, “As a matter of fact, Nora, I was wondering . . .”

“Yes?”

“Would you like to go out?”

“What do you mean?”

“Out.”

“With you?”

“Yes.”

“Oh.”

In the next ten seconds of silence, which seemed much longer to Kling than the earlier thirty seconds of silence had been, he realized he had made a terrible mistake; he was staring directly into the double-barreled shotgun of rejection and about to have his damn fool bead blown off.

“I told you, you know,” Nora said, “that I’m involved with someone . . .”

“Yes, I know. Well, listen . . .”

“But I’m not doing anything tonight, and . . . if you want to go for a walk or something . . .”

“I thought maybe dinner.”

“Well . . .”

“And maybe dancing later.”

“Well . . .”

“I hate to eat alone, don’t you?”

“Yes, as a matter of fact, I do. But Bert . . .”

“Yes?”

“I feel sort of funny about this.”

“Funny how?”

“Leading you on,” Nora said.

“I’ve been warned,” he said. “You’ve given me fair warning.”

“I would like to have dinner with you,” Nora said, “but . . .”

“Can you be ready at eight?”

“You do understand, don’t you, that . . . ?”

“I understand completely.”

“Mmm,” she said dubiously.

“Eight o’clock?”

“Eight-thirty,” she said.

“See you then,” he said, and hung up quickly before she could change her mind. He was grinning when he looked into the mirror. He felt handsome and assured and sophisticated and in complete control of America.

He did not know who Nora’s phantom lover was, but he was certain now that she was only playing the age-old maidenly game of shy resistance and that she would succumb soon enough to his masculine charm.

He was dead wrong.

Dinner was all right, he couldn’t knock dinner. They exchanged thoughts on a wide variety of subjects:

“I once did a cover for a historical novel,” Nora said, “with a woman wearing one of these very low-cut velvet gowns, you know, and I was bored to tears while I was doing the roughs, so I gave her three breasts. The art director didn’t even notice. I painted out the third one when I did the final painting.”

“I look at myself,” Kling said, “and I know I’m not a pig, I’m a fairly decent human being trying to do his job. And sometimes my job involves getting into situations that are distasteful to me. You think I like going onto a college campus and breaking up a protest by kids who don’t want to die in a stupid war? But I’m also supposed to see that they don’t burn down the administration building. So how do I convince them that keeping law and order, which is my job, is not the same as suppression? It gets difficult sometimes.”

“Contact sports,” Nora said, “are all homosexual in nature, I’m convinced of it. You can’t tell me the quarterback isn’t copping a feel off the center every time he grabs that ball.”

And like that.

But after dinner, when Kling suggested that they go dancing at a little place he knew in the Quarter, three-piece band and nice atmosphere, Nora at first demurred, saying she was awfully tired and had promised her mother she would take her out to the cemetery early tomorrow morning, and then finally acquiescing when Kling said it was still only ten-thirty, and promised to have her home by midnight.

Pedro’s, as Kling had promised, was long on atmosphere and good music. Dimly illuminated, ideal for lovers both married and un-, adulterated or pure, it seemed to work as a deterrent on Nora from the moment she stepped into the place. She was not good at hiding whatever she was feeling (as Kling had earlier noticed), and the ambience of Pedro’s was either threatening or nostalgic (and possibly more), with the result that her eyes took on a glazed look, her mouth wilted, her shoulders slumped, she became the kind of Saturday-night date red-blooded American males feared and avoided; she became a thorough and complete pain in the ass.