The talk was of
News of that new market-a warlord, cashed up with CIA money and hungry for supplies at any price-sent thrilling, speculative ripples through the community of foreign opportunists in Karachi. I encountered the story of the venturesome German and his truck full of alpine uniforms in three slightly different incarnations during the course of the afternoon. In a fever, something like gold fever, the foreigners passed the story among themselves as they pursued and closed down deals for shipments of canned foods, bales of brushed fleeces, shipping containers of engine parts, a warehouse full of second-hand spirit stoves, and stocks of every kind of weapon from bayonets to grenade launchers. And everywhere, in every conversation, I heard the dark, desperate incantation:
Vexed and gloomy with squalling emotions I entered the Faloodah House in the Bohri bazaar, and ordered one of the sweet, technicoloured drinks. The faloodha was an indecently sweet concoction of white noodles, milk, rose flavours, and other melliferous syrups. The Firni House in Bombay’s Dongri area, near Khaderbhai’s house, was justly famous for its delicious faloodah drinks, but they were insipid when compared to the fabulous confections served at Karachi’s Faloodah House. When the tall glass of pink, red, and white sugary milk appeared beside my right hand, I looked up to thank the waiter and saw that it was Khaled Ansari, carrying two drinks.
‘You look like you need something stronger than this, man,’ he said with a smile-a small, sad smile-as he sat down beside me. ‘What’s up? Or what’s
‘It’s nothing,’ I sighed, offering him a smile in return.
‘Come on,’ he insisted. ‘Let’s have it.’
I looked into his honest, open, scarred face and it occurred to me that Khaled knew me better than I knew him. Would I have noticed and realised how troubled
‘Well, it’s just a bit of soul-searching, I guess. I’ve been doing some research, digging around in some of the chaikhannas and restaurants you told me about-some of the places where the black-market guys and the mercenaries hang out. It was pretty depressing. There’s a lot of people here who want the war to go on forever, and they don’t give a shit who’s getting killed or who’s doing the killing.’
‘They’re making money,’ he shrugged. ‘It’s not their war. I don’t expect them to care. That’s just how it is.’
‘I know, I know. It’s not the
‘And… you feel… kind of
‘Maybe I do. I don’t know. I wouldn’t even think about it-you know, if I heard people talking like that somewhere else. It wouldn’t bug me if I wasn’t here, and if I wasn’t doing exactly the same thing myself.’
‘It isn’t
‘It is. Pretty much. Khader’s paying me-so I’m making money out of it, like them-and I’m smuggling new shit into a shit-fight, just like they are.’