There was a little more grey, I thought, in the mop of dark curls that brushed the collar of his jacket. The pale blue eyes were a little more tired, a little more bloodshot. Yet the wicked, leering mischief still arched his eyebrow, and the playful sneer I knew so well, and loved, was still there, curling his upper lip. He was the same man, in the same city, and it was good to be home.
"Hello, Lin," Kavita greeted me, pushing Didier aside to give me a hug.
She was beautiful. Her thick, dark brown hair was tousled and awry. Her back was straight. Her eyes were clear. And, as she held me, the casual, friendly touch of her fingers on my neck seemed like such a tender ravishment-after the blood and snow of Afghanistan-that I can still feel it, through all the years since.
"Sit down, sit down!" Didier shouted, waving to the waiters for more drinks. "Merde, I heard that you were dead, but I didn't believe it! It is so good to see you! We shall be famously drunk tonight, non?"
"No," I replied, resisting the pressure he placed on my shoulder.
The disappointment in his eyes moderated my tone, if not my mood.
"It's a little early in the day, and I have to get going. I've got... something to do."
"Very well," he yielded with a sigh. "But you must have one drink with me. It would be too uncivilised for you to leave my company without allowing me at least this little corruption of your holy warring self. After all, what is the point of a man returning from the dead, if it is not to drink strong spirits with his friends?"
"Okay," I relented, smiling at him but still standing. "One drink. I'll have a whisky. Make it a double. Is that corrupt enough for you?"
"Ah, Lin," he grinned, "Is there anyone, in this sickly sweet world of ours, who is corrupt enough for me?"
"Where there's a weak will, there's a way, Didier. We live in hope."
"But of course," he said, and we both laughed.
"I'll leave you to it," Kavita announced, leaning over to kiss my cheek. "I've got to get back to the office. Let's get together, Lin. You look... you look pretty wild. You look like a story, yaar, if ever I saw one."
"Sure," I smiled. "There's a story or two. Off the record, of course. Probably keep us going over dinner."
"I look forward to it," she said, holding my eye long enough to make sure I felt it in several places at once. She broke the contact to flash a smile at Didier. "Be nasty to someone for me, Didier. I don't want to hear that you've got all sentimental, yaar, just because Lin is back."
She walked out with my eyes on her, and when the drinks arrived Didier insisted that I sit down with him at last.
"My dear friend, you can stand to eat a meal-if you must-and you can stand to make love-if you are able-but it is impossible to stand and drink whisky. It is the act of a barbarian. A man who stands up to drink a noble alcohol like whisky, in all but a toast to some noble thing or purpose, is a beast-a man who will stop at nothing."
So we sat, and he raised his glass immediately to toast with mine.
"To the living!" he offered.
"And the dead?" I asked, my glass still on the table.
"And the dead!" he replied, his smile wide and warm.
I raised my glass in turn, clinked it against his, and threw back the double.
"Now," he said firmly, the smile discarded as swiftly as it had risen to his eyes. "What is the trouble?" "Where do you want me to start?" I scoffed.
"No, my friend. I am not talking just about the war. There is something else, something very determined in your face, and I want to know the heart of it."
I stared back at him in silence, secretly delighted to be back in the company of someone who knew me well enough to read between the frown lines.
"Come on, Lin. There is too much trouble in your eyes. What is the problem? If you want, if it is easier, you can begin by telling me what happened in Afghanistan."
"Khader's dead," I said flatly, staring at the empty glass in my hand.
"No!" he gasped, fearful and resentful, somehow, in the same quick response.
"Yes."
"No, no, no. I would hear something... The whole city would know it."
"I saw his body. I helped to drag it up the mountain to our camp.
I helped them bury him. He's dead. They're all dead. We're the only ones left from here-Nazeer, Mahmoud, and me."
"Abdel Khader... It can't be..."
Didier was ashen-faced, and the grey seemed to move even into his eyes. Stricken by the news-he looked as though someone had struck him hard on the face-he slumped in his chair and his jaw fell open. He began to slip sideways in the chair, and I was afraid that he would fall to the floor or even suffer a stroke.
"Take it easy," I said softly. "Don't go to fuckin' pieces on me, Didier. You look like shit, man. Snap out of it!"
His weary eyes drifted up to meet mine.
"There are some things, Lin, that simply cannot be. I am twelve, thirteen years in Bombay, and always there is Abdel Khader Khan ..."
