Tiny Tim полностью

“Oh how nice of you! You still haven’t realized the extent of the damage you’ve caused, have you? I had to ask John for a reference for a real job because I got fired from the student job I had first. I couldn’t work a single shift without some assholes somehow recognizing and throwing dick jokes at me. Or tripping me while I was carrying plates. And it wasn’t even just other students. There were also a few of your friends in the mix!” I said, gesturing to Claire and Aaron. “It caused so many disturbances that the owner of the Diner had to let me go. So THANK YOU for FINALLY stopping to humiliate and verbally abuse your own fucking child! Good luck getting everyone in the school and your friends to stop as well! Maybe your favorite shrink can finally do her damn job, and help YOU to get YOUR shit together, instead of demanding me to simply forget about all this crap!”

Claire looked devastated. She never thought about what she had really done to me. She had realized they neglected me, but she apparently never understood the reasons for why I had distanced myself from them before the neglect became a problem.

“And now you pull this shit!” I spat those words out while grabbing the envelope from the table and waving it in Aarons direction. “So, let me get this straight. I pay rent, while your other two kids live rent-free. I bought my own car and pay for its insurance and gas, while your other two kids got their cars bought and paid for, including fucking gas money! I pay for my groceries myself, because most of the time you don’t remember me when cooking, while your other two kids get whatever the fuck they want. I even pay for my own damn clothes! I ask you for NOTHING anymore! Still, over the weeks since Golden Boy left for college, you felt entitled to more than TWO THOUSAND FUCKING DOLLARS from MY hard earned savings, to pay for your favorite son’s shit! And then, you present me with a $100 voucher, and call it a fucking gift!? Give me twenty-one more of these, preferably in cash, and THEN you can think about giving me any money as a present!”

Everyone but Aaron, Claire and Ava stared in shock. I think, even after I had pointed out the highlights to the grandparents, they still only accepted exactly those highlights. None of them had any idea just how big the rift in our family really was, or how far removed from our relationship as parent and child we had become. None of them had ever realized how lost I had felt in this family for years.

I really didn’t know why Logan looked shocked, though. Claire, however, was now also sobbing in addition to her crying.

“It was for college!” she blubbered “His education ... we didn’t think ... we just...”

“Oh, sure! Like always! He made it sound so reasonable, right!?” I seethed. “So reasonable, in fact, that you didn’t even consider that it could possibly be unfair to me! Tell me, ’parents’, if I had to get a job to pay for my fucking schoolbooks when I was fifteen, why is it that your grown-ass Golden Boy gets my money thrown at him, no questions asked!?”

Logan immediately looked extremely uncomfortable, and I didn’t think it was embarrassment. He looked perfectly fine the whole time I was ranting, nothing I said had phased him in the slightest, until I started talking about him getting my money. Only then did his expression rapidly change. He quickly tried to change the topic and, in his usual manner, tried to shift the blame on me and defuse my claims in the stupidest way possible.

“Dude, stop blaming us for what’s going wrong in your life! So you never had a girlfriend. That isn’t our fault, or that Tess chic wouldn’t have left you!” he called out.

My mind went blank for a second. While I was pissed before, absolute fucking rage built in my stomach now. I heard the others’ dull voices protest in shock as soon as Logan had closed his mouth. Either he was the only one who didn’t know that Tess didn’t just ‘leave’ me, or he just made a grave mistake by showing his true colors. Either way, he was going to pay for it!

“What the fuck, Logan!” Came from Ava and Maggie, followed by a scared “TIM!” as Danielle noticed my chair flying back, causing everyone’s attention to shift back to me.

I moved towards Logan in purposeful strides, my eyes focused on nothing but him as he himself got up and quickly tried to build some distance between us. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed Aaron trying to get in my way, but without slowing down, without even taking my eyes off Logan, I just extended my right arm and jammed two fingers into his upper stomach, right below his sternum. When my fingers connected, he groaned loudly as his upper body cramped up and he stumbled backwards away from the pain.